oh shit! i fucking understand

so this my life. this my constant
these anomalies and let downs
are the post it notes that remind me
that my life
has been
is to
and will always be
led by me
independently
alone
its a bitch
its challenging
but its also reassuring
post-modern
and so badass (if terms are met)
ive known this
for too long
its just now
i really
(no! REALLY)
have to accept this
because if i dont
i am absolutely positive
it will be the end of my sanity

does this mean i get it now? no
but hey! its a start