my medicine

so i had really shitty past week. but geez i swear, when im falling apart, my cousins just really know how to put me back together again.

sunday, i went to church with genessa. it was the first time ive actually talked to god after questioning my own religion. and maybe its just me, but when i was in church, i felt calmer and cleasned, not ackward like i thought i would. thanks ness. we went to pizza hut after, and i vented. im still worried about going sf state and not getting the classes i want, but i think i will be ok. we went back to genessa's house and my ates and kuyas came over, and they had a little kick it. me and ness had a small study night and i watched he's just not that into you and 7 pounds. they made me feel a lot better, that i really wasnt in a shithole.

i got up around 11 today. my cousins and i went to go eat pho, and then went to tap to get some milk tea. then we went back and i took a nap. woke up, said goodbye to ness, and went home and watched house of flying daggers.

i feel a lot better, which is good, because its the week before finals and i have to do a lot of studying. im realizing a lot, and i know thats good. i think im going to be alright. thanks ness.